Sometimes it Snows in April
It’s snowing today and...
Melancholy is my vibe
My tribe can’t comfort me
I can only see what isn’t there.
It’s been 2 years and I’m still having a hard time seeing live footage of him or even listening to his music. In particular, I haven’t listened to Sometimes It Snows in April since he passed away.
It’s snowing today.
And.. as I stepped out of my car with fluffy snowflakes slapping me in my face I could only think to myself…
“Sometimes it snows in April.”
Sometimes it snows in April and, when it does, I can’t push the sadness out of my heart.
I can’t...think good thoughts and suddenly my mood turns around.
I simply cannot.
“All good things, they say, never last.”
He was right, ya know?
Nothing lasts forever but, somehow, I never imagined Prince would leave before I had a chance to tell him how much he impacted my life.
He knew me…even though he didn’t.
He spoke to me…even though he wasn’t trying.
He got me…even when I didn’t get myself.
When he died, it was like losing a family member but my physical family didn’t understand my pain…so I had no comfort.
I cried in private.
So when I felt those cold snowflakes on my skin…and those lyrics popped into my head…I decided it was time for me to hear him sing them.
I’m listening as I write this.
My hands are shaking and I keep having to backspace and delete misspelled words and incoherent thoughts.
It’s snowing today and
I’m listening to Prince.
I’m listening to “that” song.
Ya know…the one I thought I’d never sing again?
Then one I thought could never be my thing again?
Because it made me sad…even when he was with us…
And then I felt an earthquake
And as the house began to shake
Prince has jokes.
Because sometimes it snows in April…
And sometimes you have a ‘Housequake’
At the same damn time.
And then I smiled…